Sunday, April 30, 2006

Igniting Your Spiritual Passion

It was 2am. I was walking along the quiet streets, thinking about what my cell group leader said to me the day before in cell group, "Why do look so tired? You are not as focused in worshipping God as before. You are right in saying that promotion comes from the Lord. If God can promote you, he can also demote you. Do not take cell group meetings like a routine, or you will not be able to enjoy the presence of God."

Those words hit straight into my heart. I wasn't defensive. I wasn't finding excuses. I just felt that I had hurt the One who love me the most. Right then I made a decision that I will focus all my heart, all my soul, all my strength in the future when I'm worshipping the Lord.

Where was the passion I had when I just received Christ into my heart? Where did all the fire go? I used to attend multiple services, listened to sermons from anointed preachers, read spiritual books, inviting all my friends to services, worshipped and praised God in my quiet time. Was I burned out? Had my passion for God died?

I began to be angry and frustrated with myself. I was dissatisfied with my walk with God. I need a closer relationship with the Holy Spirit. God promised to speak strongly into my life. I want to hear His voice.

Then I said, "God! I do not want to be weary serving You. I need a fresh touch and anointing! I want to be more on fire for you!"

Suddenly, I felt the presence of the Holy Spirit all over me. I was in the open, in the streets. I knew God was there with me.

Few hours later, I woke up and rushed down for service. I slept rather late. Pastor Mark preached a strong and impactful message about "Igniting Your Spiritual Passion". In my heart was like: "Wow this is what I prayed for the night before! This is what I need!"

At the altar call, Pastor Mark invited everyone who needed to renew their spiritual passion to raise their hands and get prayed for. I was rather afraid initially, but then I thought again, is my own reputation more important or God's anointing?

I raised my hand high up. The people around me began to lay hands and pray for me. At the moment, the anointing of the Holy Spirit began to flow down from my head and touched my entire being. I began to shake and weep. I felt so loved by God.

From now on, I will guard my heart. I will not let the devil steal this passion from me away. I will continue to burn on with a holy fire. Amen!

Tuesday, April 25, 2006

Stretching Your Faith

As I was praying today, I begin to sit down on the floor and tried to bend down as low as I could. I was feeling a stretch in my hamstrings, and I realized that it had been a long time since I did stretching exercises.

How many of you know that stretching an "old" muscle can be rather painful? Especially if you are not very flexible.

Then I caught a revelation that our faith, our capacity, our spiritual muscles are like natural muscles. The more you stretch your muscles, the further you can reach, the faster you can run the more weight you can carry without feeling as tired.

In the supernatural, the more we pray, the more time and money we use to serve God, the more we step out in cell groups to prophesy and to pray coporately, the more we take the courage to invite friends and relatives to attend services, the greater our faith and capacity will grow.

But again, you may have been very fit physically at once, very flexible, able to put your legs behind your necks, able to do a 180 degrees split. But you have been busy with life, other stuff that caused you to neglect your training, you will not be able to these things you used to do. And when you try to do them now, it can be very painful.

That is the same in the supernatural. If we stop stretching our faith, if we cease to pray, to seek God, to step out to pray, to heal, and to evangelize, our spiritual capacity will begin to drop.

Friend, if you feel that you were not as fervent as you used to be, or that you want to be more on fire for God and what to do great things for Him, I challenge you to push beyond what you did yesterday, or last week, or last year. Begin to build your spiritual muscles.

It may be painful at first. But as your muscles are built up, it becomes easier, it becomes more effective. You can touch more lives, do greater things for God, and see more of your friends and family members coming to Christ. Let the Holy Spirit come into your life, let Him take over, rely on His strength and become the spiritual giant that God wants you to be.

You can also view this at http://www.holy-spirit-led-christian.com/stretching-your-faith.html
This is the third time I have been at my grandma's house since the Lord told me to pray for her. The past 2 times I, I have asked myself this, "What if I fail? What if she doesn't get well. There's so many people here, what would they think of me?"

Now I am standing in my grandma's room, I have just told her that I am leaving. And I have totally forgotten that I should pray for her. My grandmother has been suffering from sugar diabetes which resulted in complications in her intestines and limbs. I love her, I want her to know Jesus, I want her to be healed.

As I was leaving the room, the Holy Spirit reminded me that I should pray for her. I stood there, struggled for a moment and said to my grandma, "Ah ma, I'm leaving, take care." I spoke all these in our dialect, which I am absolutely bad at. I left the room. I have disobeyed Him.

Once again, I have ignored the leading of the Holy Spirit. Before leaving her house, I was reminded of this which the Lord had asked me on a train 2 months ago: "Which is more important? Is it your reputation or My anointing? If you want my power, show me that you are willing to make a fool of yourself."

I stood at the window saying, "God, what should I do? Please help me. Give me the courage and strength to do this. Let your presence and anointing be on me." As if from heaven, the presence of the Holy Spirit began to pour down on me and I was greatly encouraged.

I went to my relatives, telling them that I was going to pray to God to heal my grandmother. They agreed and turned off the TV so that I would not be disturbed. Wow! They were non believers!

I went into my grandmother's bedroom and closed the door, explaining as hard as I could to tell her that I was going to pray for God to heal her. But she did not understand me a single bit till I told her I was going to "niam geng" which means to pray. She gave a weak smile and nodded.

She was lying on her bed, having a painful back, which doesnt allow her to sit for long. I kneeled down on the floor beside her bed, and laid my hand on her shoulder and started to pray. As I prayed, the Holy Spirit was faithful and His presence filled the room. I could feel my words trembling as I prayed, but nonetheless I prayed that God will take away all her diseases and that she would come to receive Christ.

After I finished, I looked at my grandma, and she smiled at me. I didn't know how to ask if she is feeling better. She said that she had to take injections everyday and that it was painful. How I wish that she would be completely healed and would never have to take another injection!

I wonder how she felt as I prayed for her. Did she feel the touch and love of God as I did so strongly in the room?

As I left the house and walked to the bus stop, as I thought about the pain my grandma had been suffering and how I wished that Jesus would heal her, tears began to roll down my cheeks.

Is she healed? Does she have to take another does of insulin? Will she come to know Jesus as Lord and Savior?

Lord help me!

Monday, April 24, 2006

Come Into My Heart


Standing at the door of my heart,
Knocking at it day and night.
I used to ignore Him,
I used to ask Him to go away.
But He never left me,
Because His love for me will never fail.
He is always so patient,
He never gives up.
I have opened the door to Jesus,
I have asked Him to come in.
Dear Lord, come into my heart,
Please enter in and lock the door.
Throw the key away,
That I will never find it.

Wednesday, April 19, 2006


Your faithfulness is like the sun,

Which never fails to rise.

Your thoughts towards us is like the sand,

Which is too much to count.

Your love for us,

Is like the the endless ocean,

Too deep to comprehend.

How could I not know this earlier?

How could I be so blind until now?

You are all I ever have.

You are all I ever need.





Sunday, April 16, 2006

My first blog ever!!!

What a wonderful and packed Easter Celebrations that I just went through. In these 3 days, I saw hundreds and hundreds of people giving their lives to Jesus.

As I saw my cousins rising up their hands to accept Jesus into their hearts, the Lord spoke to my heart saying, "I will begin the salvation of your entire household from your cousins. "

Wow! My two cousins were the first to receive Jesus as their Lord and Savior among all my relatives! I will believe God for that!

Do what you can and God will do what you cannot....